Rest in peace

My uncle and I 2009

Hello readers.

Today's not a happy day... My uncle Enzo Alibrandi, just passed away. He was my father's nearest brother, something like his best friend!.. It's sad to lose a best friend, and even more sad if he's also your brother... 

My uncle Enzo, Toño (My best friend's dad) and my dad! 70's

So that's why my dad went to the Florida yesterday, 'cause we live in Venezuela, but my uncle used to live in the States. 

Now, I'm thinking about the eternal question: "What happens when we dye?" 

I'm not a very spiritual person, actually, i'm almost an atheist, don't know why, 'cause I was raise in a Catholic family, and I went to a Christian school... But, no matter how hard I try, I don't believe... So, if I don't buy the idea of heaven... What's left, is there life after death? 

If we disappear when we dye, I can officially say that THIS LIFE IS A WASTE OF TIME!! I mean... This whole planet, universe, galaxy... Just to live 80, 90 or in my uncle's case 58 years? No thanks!.. I don't think it works like that!.. 

I just wish that when we dye, we can meet with our love ones again... But I know nothing, I just can hope my uncle is better now, than he was yesterday, struggling with a cancer!..

Today's song --> Fantasma - Arbol (is in spanish)

So this is it... Not a happy day, not a happy moment!.. C ya tomorrow with a new post

New eyes?

Hello readers!
As you might now, i'm moving to Spain pretty soon (September) and I don't wanna go blind... And by blind I mean that I wear glasses!! I need them, I really can't see anything without them, if you know anything about photography you'll know what's an aperture f3.5 well if you don't, the picture behind this will show you how I usually see if I don't wear my glasses or my contacts.

So when I planed to move out, I wasn't thinking about my eyes at all, but now, I went to the doctor and I talked with my family, because I don't want to wear glasses anymore, I want to get operated from myopia (I have a -6) and that's a lot!!

But at the same time, it's kind of dangerous to make such a delicate intervention before traveling. I really don't know what I should do, I just know that for me, getting raid of the myopia would be the best of the best... I don't know what to do, but anyway do you know what's ironic?? This blog's name is The way I see it... And I don't see a shit thing hahaha

Today's song --> Blinded by the light - Manfred Mann's

So this is it... I still have the doubt haha... C ya tomorrow with a new less selfish post!!!

Don't avoid reality

That's my sister old pic but she looks like she's dealing with some troubles
so I tell her DONT AVOID REALITY!

Hello readers!!
As you might now, every morning, when I wake up, I send a "morning quote" to all my blackberry contacts. Today's quote was: "You can avoid reality, but you cannot avoid the consequences of avoiding reality" 


Sometimes, we are just so full of reality that we want to scape, and act as if you're living a simple life, but, that doesn't mean that your life is gonna be simple, maybe, because of that, your life might turn more complicated because your avoiding your responsibilities. For example if I act like I'm not leaving Venezuela, as this were normal summer vacations, that wont help me, maybe if I take that attitude I'll end supper stress with hundred of things to do in the end of the summer, or even worse, maybe the consequence of avoiding my reality, take me to loose this chance of going to Spain!

I know It sounds a little too serious for me, and for the common of my older posts, but I really think that avoiding the reality for more than 1 hour, can cause serious damages to the rest of your life.

Today's song --> I'm not afraid - Eminem

So this is it!! C ya (not tomorrow 'cause I'm going to the beach) but, friday with a new more freedom-style post!

The greatest weakness of all is the great fear of appearing weak

Do you think you’re strong enough to say to the world what’s your weakness? 

I’m not! Many times I had think about this… Maybe all my problems are there, just because I’m not strong enough to say, accepted and overcome my persona issue.

Yesterday I was watching The Glee Project on Fox… And they where singing this song “Mad World”. That for some reason, every time I hear it I can’t avoid crying. In the show, the guys were wearing big signs with their weakness written. And I though, if I were on the show, I’d had to lie about it.

Being insecure is not good for anyone, it makes you do stupid things sometimes, make the wrong decisions, or even do things you don’t wanna do, just because you’re afraid.

For my own happiness I can say that, I’m not alone, I know that! Everybody has something to hide. And I’m not talking about something material, I’m talking about feelings, emotions, way to see the world, perspective, their past or their future.

If all of us were a little bit more tolerant, maybe this could be a happier world, but that’s just how I see it…

Today’s song is: Mad World --> Gary Jules

So this is it… C ya tomorrow with a new post!

I'm watching you

Hello anonymous readers! Today's post is gonna be about one song... Every breath you take - The Police.

I think that, people is so obsess with love, that we can not see other kind of behaviors, well let me tell you something, I read somewhere... That beautiful love song I'm talking about, is not a love song!!! It's a song about a stalker singing to his victim, or maybe a paranoid person thinking that someone is watching him/her!!
Come on... Did you really think this was love? "Every move you make, every vow you break, every smile you fake... I'll be watching you" or even worse... "Oh can't you see, you belong to me" Noo my friends! That's like a crazy person talking... Once, a boy I was dating, dedicated me that song, I totally freak out, do you know why? Because I don't want anyone to watch me at every step... (it gives me the chills) so the next time you dedicate a song, go and read a lit about it... You don't want to freak out you victim lover!

Today's song --> Every breath you take - The Police.

So this is it!! C ya tomorrow with a new-less weird post!

What's your biggest fear??

A friend of mine told me once, that fears are like nightmares, if you make them public it wont happen... I hope he was right... I'm not a person that's afraid of life, but I do have some fears, this is my top three!

• Being lonely, not alone --> It's nice sometimes to get home and be all by yourself, watch tv and relax... What isn't nice is to feel lonely... I know that we came alone to this world and it's normal to stay that way sometimes, but loneliness is like having a huge hole in my soul... U just can't stand that feeling.

• Single forever --> Have you imagine yourself 20 years from now? I can bet you're thinking about having a good job, a family... I know there's people who's happy being single for now, because we're jung and what ever... But what about the future, when you start being older than now, to get home and to have nobody to be with... Do you wanna be single for ever? I don't 

• To be unsuccessful --> I'm imagining that I'm 35 years old, and still not doing what I want, still not working at any audiovisual production, wasting my life, because it'w ok to waste your time once in a while, but the life? I don't think so... So me, in 14 or 15 years from now, doing none of the things I dream of... That's a fear!!!

I think those are my biggest fears, not phobias, (that will be sharks and cockroaches)... So now that I had told you I hope it wont come true anytime in the future!!!

Today's song: Eleanor Rigby - The Beatles

So this is it... Tell me about your fears if you feel like doing it... C ya tomorrow with a new happier post!!

Who gives less?

Hello readers!! Today's post is dedicated to those people that are dating, but still single...

Life, and specially love, has become a stupid competition to see, who gives less... Who text less, who cares less, everything less than the other person. It's like a stupid game where the one who falls in love, loose.
Why? Yeah less-givers, i'm talking to you!.. Don't you have beautiful feelings for that person, don't you wanna show them? Are you afraid???
Stop being a coward, take the risk... Because that game of who gives less doesn't work for ever... If you don't feel it (love), let them go, but if you feel it (love) tell that person what you think!

I don't know what's your opinion about this, but I hate it... I took the decision: I'll stop dating those losers that think "who gives less, wins"... What would you do about this? We most stop this competition!!

Today's song: Boys and girls. Good Charlotte

So this is it... C ya tomorrow with a non-love post!!!

I wont sleep tonight!

This morning my best friend, who lives in Spain, told me that the post office sent her a letter saying that, the answer of my request for studying in the Universidad de Jaume in Spain has arrived...

I'm really nervous, because, i'm here in Venezuela and I can't go and read the letter, and my friend can't go tomorrow to pick it up... So I think this two days are gonna be the hardest days of my life... I'm already sweating, and shaking, I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight!

I've being waiting for this letter since April, and suddenly, it's here, I don't have to wait anymore, my destiny is written in a simply piece of paper, in the other side of the world. I'm just about to find out if I'm moving away, if I'm gonna live in another country, if I'm definitely gonna leave my university, my friends and my family to be independent for the first time... I'm scare, but happy... I'm crying while i'm writing this.

But I'm sure of one thing... No matter what happens it'll be the best for me, destiny will talk to me tomorrow and I must accept what it has to tell me!!

So this is it... C ya tomorrow with a new full of drama post!!!